My Thirty Seconds to Mars Road Blogs
The fire of our spirit…
In case you aren’t aware, there is a group of us on Twitter affectionately known as #TeamSwaxy. I got busted by Jared in the m&g in Tulsa using this word, and called out to give the group a brief explanation. To which Jared smiled and nodded because let’s face it…not everyone gets it *lol* But here’s the deal, a handful of us on Twitter used to pass picture of Shannon Leto around to cheer each other up. Our friend Aimee tried to type out sexy and sweaty, and instead her phone turned into “swaxy”. So, from that day forward we coined the term “swaxy” specifically when referring to Shannon…the way he moves, his groove, his sexy swagger, the way he just flows when he’s onstage and in his moment. It can mean a lot of things, but for this small group of Twitter friends it became our term of endearment.
#TeamSwaxy is basically a handful of Echelon who lives across the world, and instead of Friday happy hours, we’d get together and share Shannon pictures on what we’ve deemed SPF (ShanPorn Friday, it’s also the scale we use to warn people how HOT a picture might be *lol*). We’d send each other pictures to cheer each other up, to share our love and respect of Shannon, and generally bond over the invisible cosmic waves that Echelon tend to share.
With that said, we decided to contact our friend Killing Aurora and have her make bracelets for us. Aurora does great bead work, and we wanted something special for just us. Our little SPF and #TeamSwaxy has grown since it started, and the core of us wanted something special to remind us that this isn’t just about how “hot” Shannon is, this is friendship. And we are here for each other, and Shannon, even if we can’t all be in the same place at the same time.
So, we got together over email and put our heads together about what we wanted. We agreed “no pink” *lol* I am a believer in the metaphysical properties of healing stones/crystals…so I gave a few suggestions. On my outing to find the crystals that I felt resonated with our project, I came across a few things.
grrlse7en Hey girl! Thank you for your kind words! I think you have every right to be upset about it! Honestly, I would have been devastated. I was sad that he wasn’t at the signing so I can totally understand the way you feel about his absence during your M&G. I felt the exact same way when I saw that he was with Kirstina. I don’t know if he doesn’t understand how important he is to us and the band or if he just doesn’t even care anymore. Makes me sad to say, but that’s how I feel now. I hope that you still had a great time in Vegas though! It was definitely an amazing show! 💖 Mars hugs!
I’ll get over it, tbh. I’m a very understanding person, I just want the truth. Which I’m also accepting that I, as a fan, may never know it. So be it. Private matters are just that…private. I don’t want anyone hurting themselves to entertain me.
I can, however, choose to not wallow in all the drama b/c that toxicity is hard on me. I’ve been a victim of malicious gossip b/c I do know “rock stars” and musicians and have dealt with a LOT of crap just because I have boobs and follow a band. But for me, it’s def not showing support to Shannon by me being negative. I have my thoughts and opinions, but in the end, they matter very little in the scheme of things. He didn’t give up on me when I was in a dark place, so I owe him the same courtesy. (Not saying he’s in a bad place, I don’t know. I’m just speaking in general)
My loyalty will always lie with Shannon. He’s not perfect, but fuck neither am I. I did a lot of bad shit in my life. I am the LAST person who can judge anyone, esp since I don’t have the whole story…just my own experience. I got a little heartache in Vegas, but it in no way ruined my day. Where thoughts go, energy flow…so I choose to flow positive. Great time, great friends…it was fun! And I don’t go to see just Shannon, so it wasn’t like hugely crushing to me. Still had Jared, Tomo, and a great show. I think what breaks my heart the most is how much drama is going on right now…and that’s the last thing anyone should have to deal with.
Thirty Seconds To Mars & “Grrl” Seven
September 19, 2014 - Concord, CA
Thanks for 9 years of amazing memories =)
Sept 6, 2014 Dallas - 30STM
So, here’s the deal. I was going to stay the night after the Houston show, but some yahoo pulled the gd fire alarm at 2am. I could’ve lived with that, but when I got back to my room, the room above me had flooded so bad, it flooded down into MY room, and the room below me. Fuuuuuck…so I bailed outta the hotel, made my drive to Dallas.
I had 2 hours of sleep, only to wake up and find my information for the AM will call for Artifact was not correct. So I had to get ready and haul ass through Dallas to get to the Magnolia, which thanks to GPS I passed 5 times because I thought it was a bar *lol*
You can also find my rambling, not-so-well thought out blogs about my trip here:
September 5, 2014
September 6, 2014
Anyway….here’s my pics….
Tomo Milicevic, Shannon Leto, “Grrl” Seven & Jared Leto
The Woodlands, TX
Sept 5, 2014
I blinked, had to retake another photo. Hence the joke the next night “Don’t blink!” from Shannon. (Well, no tickling then Shan ;)
It was like a Dr Who weeping angel moment with me and my friend about don’t blink or Jared will show up two inches from you and steal you out of the wibbly-wobbly-timey-wimey continuum.
Thirty Seconds To Mars - Tinley Park, IL - Aug 29, 2014 #CarnivoresTour
I walked up and did the polite one arm hip squeeze I always do. Shannon turned and smoooooshed me, I couldn’t breathe *lol* So I turned and hugged him back! I loved the ninja bearhug…I’m surprised this turned out b/c it was sooo hooot in that tent and I was staring off in lala unicorn land before they took the pic.
Sending out some love into the Universe…
Dear @ShannonLeto ~
I hope this gets to you, as I know you’re not online much (understandably) and are going through some very personal issues. But I thought I’d just send something out into the Universe anyway. This is the letter I wish I had given to you in NYC in 2011. But I chickened out and gave you the other one, which is still from the heart, it’s just…this one is truly to you, and only you.
So now that it’s been awhile for me to sit on this, I think it’s time I just send it. Thank you for taking the time…I feel stupid writing a letter on such a public forum, but this will have to do. What I want to say is…personal. But I wanted to share it with you. I can’t say these things to you in a meet & greet due to time, but also I’m not the kind of person who likes a lot of people to hear my business. In essence, I’m private and like to keep what I feel away from strangers who may misunderstand, or see me as vulnerable. But whatever…
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